Band/Artist: the GazettE
Genre: Random
Pairings: None
Summary: Aoi hates love so much. Because of his past relationship, he hated it. Now that he’s successful with his band, he doesn’t really care much about loving and being in a relationship. One day, the GazettE had to record their new song. The song was about love. Aoi, fed up with thoughts and nightmares about love, refused to do the recording. Everyone is wondering why he had refused. Does he hate love or is he just afraid of love?
Disclaimer: I do not own Aoi and the rest of the GazettE. I own the plot of the fic (I think.)
Notes: This is the first fanfic I ever made!! I’m still a rookie to making such stuffs. As you can see, my summary is kinda O_O. I recommend you to better read the full story instead. This fanfic is dedicated to the GazettE’s amazing guitarist Aoi….my beloved bias who’s turning 32 this year 
Best wishes to you Aoi-san!! Don’t be always a hopeless romantic XD.
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It was a cold morning in Mie. There were strong waves near the beach. Along the beach, a tall guy was standing. He was talking to a girl.
“But I don’t want to go with you!!”, the girl said
“Rika , if you can only go with me, I would promise you a good life. Come with me in Tokyo!”
“I don’t want to leave Mie!”
The sky was dark. It was going to rain. Rain poured in the area. It was as if tears were falling from the sky.
“Yuu, I think we have to end our relationship now. I couldn’t take this any longer.”
“But…Rika!”
“I just think we aren’t meant for each other. You want to leave Mie, but I want to stay here. Goodbye, Yuu…”
Heavy rain flooded the area. The waves were so strong. As the rain had fallen, tears stream down from his cheeks. There was a lump in his throat. A painful one.
Everything was one with him.
It was all just a dream.
Aoi woke up from the nightmare. For the past nights, he had dreamed of the same nightmare. Probably, he lacks sleep. Or maybe not… He dreamed of Rika, his girlfriend who had broken up with him 10 years ago. He can still remember the days he spent with her. The kisses they shared on the beach, the stories they exchanged to each other and when they went surfing together. Their relationship was sweet but it ended bitterly. It was all because he had to pursue his dream.
“Love is stupid…Who invented it anyway?”, he said bitterly as he lit his cigar. “I think I’ll never have time to love, it’s such a waste time.”, he thought. But why the waste of time? He loved to do his job. He loves producing songs and making music more than anything. But what about he said about love on interviews?
They were all lies, he remembered. He had been wearing his poker face for a long time now. He hated love.
“Love, love and love…such a stupid thing!!”, he thought again. He didn’t care about marriage too.
“I’m 31 years old and I’m turning 32 in a few months…why love if you’re going to get old anyway?”, he said to himself.
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“Ruki-kun, where is Aoi-san?? We need him right now. Gahhh… we need to start recording for the new single…”, Leader Kai asked
“Probably, he’s stucked in his room is once again…” said Uruha.
Everybody in Gazetto is busy with the new single. Since winter was coming, Ruki had thought of making a ballad instead of the usual Gazetto songs. The ballad was titled, Pledge: it was all about love.
“So why is he late? Aoi is the only member who comes early that I know. So why the delay?”, Reita said.
“Look guys, he’s here…”, Ruki said to the other members.
“Guys, I’m sorry for being late. I had a bad dream again.”, said Aoi.
“Aoi-kun, don’t ever do that once again…”, Kai said to Aoi.
“Why are you addressing to me like that??? Don’t you know I’m supposed to be the eldest in this band?“, Aoi shouted in an angry tone.
“Aoi-kun, just chill… we have no time for arguments right now. All we need to prioritize is the new single.”, Ruki said to the older member.
“Oh yes… Damn I forgot. Gomenasai! So how’s the lyrics?? So what’s the song all about??”
“It’s all about L-O-V-E”, said Reita in a happy tone.
“That’s the best thing in the world!!!”, Kai cheered while smiling.
“I have longed to love a woman, don’t we all?”, Uruha answered.
“Except for me, I’m not planning to engage in some relationships…“, Ruki said proudly to the other members.
“So what do you think Aoi-kun?”
“I HATE L-O-V-E!!! I think it’s the worst thing in this world”, Aoi said.
“What do you mean??? I thought you liked LOVE??”, Kai stuttered.
“I DON’T LIKE LOVE… It’s annoying for me!!!”, Aoi said to the other members.
“I’ve been like wearing a poker face for a long time now… I’ve had enough of that stupid thing.”
“Gahh… I think you’re afraid to love…”, Reita giggled.
“Aoi-kun, maybe because of your age… You’re in your early 30′s… You need to get laid!!”, Uruha said while laughing with Reita.
“I’M NOT AFRAID OF THAT STUPID THING! I just hate it! It’s a distraction!!”
“You’re such a baka, Aoi-kun… Don’t you know love is a treasure?”, Kai replied to the frustrated guitarist.
“Why are you calling me baka? Have some respect, ok?”, Aoi said angrily.
“Aoi-kun, please… for the sake of our next single…”, Ruki said.
“I’ll never tolerate that one again… I’ve had enough of the past love ballads.”
“Aoi-kun, without you, we can’t never make a new song. You’re our sound producer.”, said Kai.
“Damn, we must change the theme..”
“But Aoi-kun, we have a little time now… in 2 months we will release the single and begin the promotions.”, Ruki said to the taller guitarist.
“I said that I’ll never tolerate those songs again, I had enough of them… They are the reasons why I get nightmares at night… Can’t you people have some understanding??”
“Damn, can you change the theme… Or else…”
“As I’ve said Aoi-kun…”, Ruki said. And then, as Ruki talked, Aoi was gone.
“Darn that, Aoi-kun, he ran away…”, Reita said.
“I wonder where he had gone to… I hope those crazy fangirls would not catch him…”, a worried Kai had said.
“I think I know where… We should let him have his time… Gahh…maybe he might change his mind…”, Uruha said.
“Aoi is very serious with his words. We’ve lost our hope. He’ll never take back his words”, said Reita in a sad tone.
“Or maybe not…”, Ruki had said to the rest of the members.
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“Aaaa… I can’t take this any longer!!”, Aoi said to himself as he panted.
He was there again. At his secret place. It was a place near the bay. He sat near the tetra pods. He thought:
“Afraid of love… I don’t think so… Why would I need love when I’m growing old now.. Look at yourself, Yuu, can’t you see you’re aging?”
As he was thinking, he looked at his reflection by the seawater. He looked at his face.
“You’re growing old… You’ll never get a chance to love…”
Aoi saw the fine lines on his face. They were age lines. Once again, he thought:
“If I had the chance to love, what would I do in a relationship? Would my girlfriend care for me even if I’m aging?“, he said disgustedly to himself.
As he looked at the water… He realized…
“I’m afraid to love… Why was I such a baka for all these years?”
His heart throbbed, he touched his chest. There was pain in his heart. The wounds in his heart stayed there for many years. He had been blinded by his dreams.
Love hurt him because of his ambitions. It hurt him so much that it made him hate love. If it weren’t for his dreams, he thought, Rika would never leave him.
He thought of Rika once again. Her kissable lips… her eye smile and her sweet voice… He remembered the moments they had with each other. They promised to be together. But it didn’t matter now, he knew that Rika was not meant for him. What matters was the time now, he thought.
“You have the Gazetto, Yuu…”, he said to himself. “You have you fans… don’t worry…”
Then, he thought again. What matters was the present now. He realized he needed someone to love. A person who would not only stay with him whenever he’s alone, but a person who loves him for who he is. It doesn’t matter that he is aging, all he wants is to love someone and to be loved by someone. He needed a relationship. But why is he scared? His heart has been scarred by a bitter break-up 10 years ago… He didn’t wanted to be hurt again, by love…
The sun was setting. It looked very beautiful. It was one of the most amazing things he had seen. He wondered what would happen if he brought his future girlfriend to this place. What would be her smile like? Will she be grateful to him? All those thoughts were on his mind. He felt warmth in his heart once again.
It was not the same as before. The cold feelings were gone now.
He thought, “So is love really one of the best treasures in this world? If it would be, I’m gonna start looking for it and grab it.” He was grinning while the sun was setting.
“Oh no… I forgot that we have to work on the new song. How darn of me!”, Aoi said to himself. He left and ran back to the recording studio.
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“It’s 7:00 pm and we haven’t started recording with the new song.”, Kai said in a worried tone.
“I bet Aoi-kun’s pleasuring himself in his room…”, giggled Reita who was thinking perveredly.
“Maybe not. Maybe he’s in the bar or something… Gahh.. I wanna drink some sake right now!”, said Uruha in a loud tone.
“Uru-kun, it’s not the right time to drink some sake right now. We’re in a big problem, remember??”, Ruki replied. Because Aoi was gone, Ruki had wanted to escape from the problem. He wanted to ran away to some place right now. He thought, “Where would that old man would go anyway?”
Everyone was feeling hopeless. Ruki lit his cigar and smoked. Reita looked as if he was about to cry. Uruha who was longing for some sake. And Kai’s stomach was grumbling…
“Who wants some French toast?”, the leader asked.
“French toast… in the evening?? I don’t think so…”, said Reita.
“Guys… I’m back! Gomenasai!! I’m sorry for being such a baka.”, Aoi said to his bandmates.
“Are you serious? I never heard you calling yourself a baka…”, Reita replied.
“Aaah… Aoi-kun..ano… why did you ran away suddenly?”, asked Kai.
“Well, I had to reflect on something… anyways, have you started recording?
“You old man… darn… we haven’t started yet!!! Don’t you know that I was desperate for some sake?”, Uruha said.
“Gomene..”
“You don’t need to say sorry, Aoi-kun. What’s important is the single!!”, Ruki said to Aoi…
“Ano… guys… I think my stomach is grumbling… I can’t take it any longer…”, Kai said in a weak tone.
“Me too… gahhh… I need some sake…”, Uruha said.
“Guys, since I made a mistake today… I’ll treat food for all of you… Hmmm…. let me think…”
“Hahaha… he’s playing food afficionado once again!”, giggled Reita.
“I know some sushi bar around Akibahara. I heard they have some good Nigirizushi (hand-rolled sushi) and they serve good sake too.”
“I wanna go… for sake only…”, Uruha cheered.
“Reita-kun, I will also give you some kit-kats… I heard there’s a new store in Akibahara selling the limited edition of KITKAT.”
“Ok… I’ll surely go…”
Everyone was unaware of Aoi’s thoughts. They only thought that he was overreacting. But it didn’t matter now.
They all went to Akibahara. On the way, Aoi had thought that love is always available but he never have time to grab it.
Aoi knew he was okay now. He only had to make his move now. He knew that he had the chance to find true love.
It is never too late for him.
—-the end—-
